Today I say goodbye to a great friend, who has faithfully accompanied me in recent years......my blue sketch pencil u_u ..... (oh, that sounded serious, didn't it? XD )
Photo of the little one (and the companion who is almost on his last too)
Hehe, jokes aside, I've been desperately searching for a pencil similar to this one that I got used to using for my doodles for a few months now. I have a big problem with pencils, my hand usually sweats a lot, so often my sketch pages used to just turn into a blur of things when I ran my hand over them, and incredibly I discovered this pencil in a drawing course I took and it changed my life. It releases much less pigment than the others I found around, no wonder I was desperate when I realized it was going away
But incredibly this is not just a pencil ending, I consider it a kind of closing of the cycle perhaps...because this is the FIRST pencil I have used completely in my entire life! Now I'll go back in time a bit
Everyone who creates something always faces the question:
-But how long have you been drawing?
And my answer, like many others is always:
-Since always
And it really is, I've been drawing since I was a kid, but I was always horrible with paints so I continued for a long time to be just a corner of the notebook scribbler, never really focused hard enough to learn to draw, much as I liked it a lot, I've been working since I was a kid and I always had problems at school, so at various points in my life I gave up drawing.... and after a while I always came back because there was a huge void in the fact of not drawing
For a long time I thought I should do realistic drawings, because that's what people like, right? An artist has to have a lot of technique, be very good.... have a gift (oh how I hate that word) and that was something that made me stop drawing several times, because I didn't think I had it
(this was one of the last "rendered" drawings I tried to do, yes I know, it's not good)
It was then that, by miracle I got a designer job and stopped working carrying weight, and it was at that job that a great friend took me to take a course with Hiro Kawahara, which, modesty aside, completely changed my life
And 4 years ago I started sketching for real for the first time in my life
Seriously, and this is not propaganda, the course was about drawing more freely, learning a looser process of drawing, a type of drawing that looks a bit "dirty" working on the doodles and having confidence in the act of drawing, and it was there that I learned what I really liked to draw, it was where I started to discover the famous "own style" and after that course my relationship with drawing was totally changed, because finally, I liked the things I did..... ah, but what about the pencil? So, it was here that I got used to doing the sketches with these orange and blue colored pencils, and soon after I finished the course, my partner gave me two pencils of the same type (but one was red) that were lost in the middle of her artist stuff
And here we are, after a few years my first two pencils are going to the grave, I'll probably keep them as an amulet. I'm looking at this in a more reflective way, and how much I still have to learn, but it's nice to see that after many years I can finally see a path... but now, what pencil am I going to use you might ask? Well, remember that friend who introduced me to the course? Well, she had SEVERAL of them saved and gave them to me, DESPERATION OVER, and I have more pencils to waste until the end with silly sketches
I think that's it for today people, try different styles, test different materials, creativity is something to free you, if you don't like what you do, try it another way, and don't stop creating.... and stay hydrated, until next time!
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